i cant get over how happy he looked when he described how evenly coloured his pancake was )))):

im fine with him&pancakes. in fact, i admire guys who can cook. but its who he flipped pancakes with ):
memories indeed.
boo i hate myself for being jealous over virtually nothing

ANYWAY i was in coldstorage and browsing the baking section
all the pancake mixes were screaming in my face until i finally CANOT TAKE IT ANYMORE.
grabbed pillsbury pancake mix and marched straight to the checkout counter

i don’t know what was i trying to achieve or prove by doing so
it just seems like such a childish senseless outlet to vent my anger on.

i think one of the reason is tt im brought up as a very competitive kid. i rmbed the colouring activity in my nursery class when i was only four. everyone was supposed to colour this picture of a flower & a bee. the girl sitting next to me finished much faster than i did and the teacher praised her work in front of the whole class and gave her A** (and by which the * stands for star; so its A STARSTAR) i didn’t want to lose out, so i coloured my flower petals in multi-colours and even drew in clouds at the back. aha i got A*** (ASTARSTARSTAR) for that and i was super smug. SEE, get what i mean.

okay, back to pancakes. maybe i wanted to prove to myself that i am jus as capable as her; that i can flip pancakes too; that i can get an evenly-coloured pancake. im such an idiot ):

there. amazing how jealousy can cause me to change my opinion of pancakes so drastically. the sight of pancakes now jus make my thoughts wander to whr they shouldn’t even wander to and i jus want to get rid of the pancakes; asap. i threw away my batch of perfectly done pancakes in the end- notice the picture of the pancakes in the thrashbag.

i can flip pancakes perfectly fine alright. heck, i can even use the selftimer mode on my camera and capture the flipping process. but i don’t feel any sense of accomplishment. im not even the least bit happier than i was before i paid for that box of pancake mix in cold storage. i jus ended up $3.60 poorer and a scalded forefinger.

and maybe even a tad more miserable because i feel dumb.

grow up, yuanru ): but meanwhile, let me continue hating pancakes.

MOVING ON, i met up with leeshuang at the stadium today. we wanted to run one, but both of us were lazy and ended up sitting there nua-ing&chitchatting. leeshuang, if ure reading this: POPIAH AND TANGYUANS ARE NOT FATTENING.

was on my way to meet leeshuang when jacky called. he’s down with high fever! booked out in the evening and headed home straight to ‘recuperate’. man, thrs a possibility of it being handfootmouth disease too. or even worse, dengue. ):

GET WELL SOON, BOYFRIEND!