v
v
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myriad.
<3

hazel told me kelvin revamped his room recently & his new wardrobe includes a space for her. the bed is queensized. theres space on the study table for her. there's two chairs. she feels like a newly-wed couple.

marilyn signs in and out of kenneth's friendster as and when she likes just for fun and they chat on the phone every night.

joshua xiao has a new blog and he nv fails to mention juliana in his posts.

audrey and terence have so many things to talk about in the car.

vanessa had cramps and yi dropped by just to give her a box of chocolates. aww.

i hate to say this, but im actually jealous of them.

happy halloween people!!

4am alr! nationbuilding test later oh gosh.
sigh weekdays are so unlike weekends ): last saturday jacky stayed over at my place to acc me while i do my work but i fell asleep and when he woke me up, there was already a cup of hot coffee on the table for me. now i have to make my own coffee.
jacky no more stayout-nights alr. ):

im early for school again because i always forget that my tuesday stats tutorial starts at 9am instead of 8am and i wake up at 6.10am to get ready only to realise that at 6.45am. what a total retard.

i know this sounds weird b'cause im not in the bestest mood myself but, BYY CHEER UP OKAY (:
next time u lonely can ask me go ntu find u then we'll spend the night gossiping about everyone and everything that we can think of. i'll never forget the time when u stayed over at my place to prepare valentine's day gift in J2. rmb the burnt chocolate and the stained pot? its hell funny pls. and our sugar cookies that were rock-hard&tasted like crap? HAA. did we buy flowers for each other? i forgot rofl. pls crash nus next tues so i can show u simyk lookalike in my bio lect!

im getting fatter and i hv depressing dark circles plus breakout. i trimmed my hair but no one could notice the difference because it still looks like its all over the place. i dont look like im someone's girlfriend at all. girlfriends are supposed to look pretty everyday!

my mum hates it when i do not sleep at night. she'll scold me and i'll end up feeling horrid. but today i told my mum nicely that i cant sleep because im already in a lousy mood so pls dont scream at me and she jus left me to do my stuffs alone.

today i apologised to jacky. he said he doesnt want to blow things up. i feel as if im doing everything wrongly.

hazel is damn sweet. she said i can call her anytime in the middle of the night if i need someone to chat with but i think she's having her hall activity now.

i go do suja now.

i am evil.
i can foresee sth bad but im pretending.

SP1202 quiz later.

what im listening to. just the title itself makes me think.
that apart, its a very nice song.


Lovers Again
作詞: Kiyoshi Matsuo
作曲: Jin Nakamura

初雪にざわめく街で
見覚えのあるスカイブルーのマフラー
ふり向いた知らない顔にうつむく

あのひとが部屋を出てから
この退屈な街に二度目の冬
僕はまだ想いの炎消せずにくすぶっている

ひとりでは 愛してる証さえ
曖昧でせつないだけ
ふたりでは やさしく見守ること
続けられない...

もう一度会いたいと願うのは
痛みさえいとしいから
ときめきを失くした永遠より
熱い刹那を

「さよなら」は僕から告げた
後悔ならば何度したことだろう
時間だけ巻き戻せたらいいのに

唇を薄く開いて
「もう平気よ」とつぶやいたあのひと
つよがりと本当は気づいていたよ
この僕でも

ひとりでは 愛された記憶さえ
儚くてむなしいだけ
ふたりでは 想いあたためる意味見つけられない

* もう二度とあんなに
誰かのこと愛せない そう思ってた
でも今は情熱が
目を覚ます予感がしてる

If I ever fall in love, again
もう一度めぐり会えたら
その手を離さない もう迷わないさ
I just don't know what to say to you
言葉にできないままで
想いはあふれてくGet back in love, again

もう一度会いたいと願うのは
痛みさえいとしいから
ときめきを失くした永遠より
現実(リアル)を生きる

repeat *

ive decided against asking mummy because i know what her advice will be.
actually ive talked to so many people abt it and everyone is jus sympathetic towards me. only claire&yongcheng enlightened me alil.

sigh pls go away ):
leave us alone.

and nationbuilding&suja still irks me.

caught HALLOWEEN with byy lunsiang and simyk at vivo. tt show is ass-sick, pls dont watch it unless u enjoy gore. i screamt afew times and hung on to byy. simyk was hugging his own legs. lunsiang was cool, he didnt even budge.

i cleaned my room on friday and cleared out so many clothes my wardrobe looks half empty now. which means it has to be filled up = shopping baby! (: i replenished one today - got the green zara top yays. and i purchased my red nano online today alr. must strike when the iron is hot, what if i piss my mum off tomorrow and she goes back on her words HAHA. whee i cant wait for it to arrive in the mail :D :D :D mr postman come quick!

jacky asked me to get a wristlet for his friend from US & send to mike(my sis's bf in US) first. although i think mike was pretty unwilling (he asked me to pay for my own postage), still a million thanks to him.

girlfriends, buddy hoagies cafe on friday? i have alot of things on my mind and i need listening ears ): 

today is clarissa's and shaoxian's birthdays. happy birthday!

conferencing with patricia made me realise how flawed my SUJA drafts were ): im sorry she had to read through the multiple pages of gibberish i previously submitted. right now i have to rearrange all the contents and try to un-magazine-fy it (formalise it).

went tanjong pagar after conference and i got lost. dont ask me why i went alone, i will snap at u. am feeling lousy enough already. after walking around in circles for about 20minutes, i finally found amara hotel & paid for my slippers. i looked so pissed off the salesperson thought he reserved the wrong size for me initially.

i need to pack my room later because my mum told me she will buy me the red nano and green zara top if i do so by today.

sigh, why is it always all about you you you you and you ): what about ME?

im still depressed over my suja, chem test, my hair and probably everything else.

i dont understand i dont i dont i dont!!

i hate emo mornings ): ): ): ):
can i lie down in bed and close my eyes and not do anything else while pretending that the world is being very fair to me? sigh.

welcome to the F for chemistry club in nus. im the president, of course.
sigh ): im really lousy at remembering mechanisms and reagents and conditions and all the electron-movement arrows.

and then there's the extremely demoralising SUJA issue ): its alr the 2nd draft but theres so many flaws in it its barely 25% there. i need to map out my ideas clearly and refocus. rahh apparently bryan and andy are having major headaches over their SUJAs too. andy&mine are the worst we are best friends ): ): ): we are having our extra conferencing with patricia tmr again sigh.

bryan drove today so we went vivo after SP conference ended. AND GUESS WHAT. I MET VEEKAY AKA MY BESTEST AUNTIE-BUDDY ALONG THE ROAD. HAHAHA i shouted her name from the car the scene was damn funny. anw she hopped on for a ride to vivo too cux she was heading to dhoby to meet her bf for lunch, the two sweet lovebirds lol! mannnn the two of us have a trillion things to catch up on! meeting up for lunch on thurs!

shopped shopped shopped and i spent money again ): im feeling quite guilty because im supposed to be saving up for my red ipod nano but i think i may not be getting it afterall. SIGH. anyway i asked the apple store pple and they told me its ONLY available from the online store. im so cursed with bad luck. buy one mp3 player also have to go through so much hassle, DONT BUY LA DONT BUY LA UGH.


anw i really dont go for charles&keith stuffs so when i first saw this pair of slippers tt i thought was quite nice, i hesitated and didnt buy it. the first time i tried it there were two other girls trying on that same pair so leeshuang was like 'are u sure!' then i told my gfs abt it& they too, told me its C&K LEH, YOU SURE? hahh so i thought, nvm dont get. BUT THAT DAY, i saw my tutorial mate wear and we started discussing how nice it is. she told me TWO OF HER OTHER FRIENDS BOUGHT IT TOO. and its so nice its like, nearly out of sizes everywhere. at that, i really regretted not buying ): so i went to vivo to try my luck today and they too, ran out of size 36. the very rude salesgirl actually asked me call up the outlets to ask myself, i was SO ANGRY I COULD HAVE CHOKESLAMMED HER IN THE SHOP. but i was determined to get tt slipper so i called up at least 5 shops before hitting jackpot& I FOUND IT at some ulu shopping center (: reserved alr, im going to get it tmr maybe!

i have 1 quiz and 2 tests next week i swear im dying ):

i had a really random dream the other day. I DREAMT OF MY GRANDMOTHER WHO PASSED AWAY IN JUNE. and she was driving this white convertible with jacky sitting next to her and wendy&my other granny sitting in the backseat. in the dream my ahma even talked to me in english and i replied her in dialect 'wah ahma eh yiao gong ang moh ah!' i miss her ):

today dear told me he wanted to get the red nano for me last night but thrs only the 8GB one&he cant afford tt. i was at central forum with marilyn when i read the msg and i shouted 'OMGOMGOMG' three times in a row EXTREMELY LOUDLY. lucky he nv buy or else i'll feel so darn guilty. im being spoilt rotten alr hehh. dear always leaves me speechless, in a good way :D

came back from hospital in the morning, bathed & headed out to bishan immediately.
bishan macs manager politely told me tt i cant study there from 12 to 4pm immediately after i finished my last bite of fillet-o-fish. @#$%^&*(*%$#@#$% thanks alot.
so i headed over to the library which was so super small w minimal chairs&tables. managed to find a seat but the uncle sitting opp me kept burping nonstop i was quite grossed out. after 2 hours of constant burping (why does he hv so much gas in him?), i decided enough was enough. left the library&managed to find a comfy spot at coffeebean. i surfed the net, read abit of chem, had a muffin, surfed the net somemore, slept abit, people watched, read more chem and FINALLY it was 7.30pm & dear appeared in front of me (: all the waiting paid off because i got to see my bf on a weekday night and hv dinner together. (plus he was wearing my fave colour combi HAHA)

P.S. DRINK COFFEEBEAN'S SWEDISH BERRY ICED TEA ONLY if u like the taste of medicine. i should hv sticked to snapple, damn it.

anw, i was feeling quite 'sighhh' initially cux we only managed to have dinner together then i trained home myself alr BUT JACKY'S ABSOLUTELY THE CUTEST ((: i wanted to buy the red ipod nano so he went to find out the prices for me from many different places cux he cant find it in junction8. and the first thing he said to me this evening was tt he is tired cux he didnt sleep well last night. aww hearts!

i bought icecream on my way back, thinking that i can eat w my sis but she wasnt home so i gave it to my maid instead. i think she's v happy about it. hahah

why do i suddenly feel that im losing in every single thing im trying to do?

):

great eastern womens run (: 5km fun run only.

5km- its quite a tough feat alr k. given that i hvn been running for the past month and my furthest distance was only 4km. haa. be proud of me my friends (: and i saw ERIC (the singtel guy) after the race rofl. the world is so small. oh and gfs! I SAW HAWYI! he waiting for his gf to finish the run.

hah jacky who was supposed to buy me bfast BEFORE the run&drive us to padang overslept totally so my dad sponsored cab fare for us to go in the end. but dear came over and drove us to rochor beancurd after the run (: YAYS. but too bad the shop not open today, so depressing.

came back, bathed and slept slept slept until dinnertime. had dinner at northpoint w dear then im back at home alr. my aunts are over here now and they keep saying i look like my guy cousin. im so manly.

jacky says:
im gay

HAH NOW WE KNOW.

went back to ijc on friday!


anw my europetrip buddies still canot stand the way i camwhore.
BYY: I THINK YOU NEED TO TAKE LESS PICTURES.
SHAOXIAN: YOU ARE TAKING MORE PICTURES THAN WHEN WE WENT EUROPE.

i left early to meet claire for girlfriend chitchat (:

i was reading chem in macs & this xiaodi came over to ask me for my number thinking that i was studying for my olevels. ):
DO I NOT LOOK 9TEEN TO THE WORLD OUT THERE?
rahrahrah.
anyway haha xiaodi, i am old woman alr, sorry to disappoint ROFL
sigh whr was jackypay when i needed himmmmmm! i dont want some xiaodi to walk me home from macs i want jackypay to do so ):

sighsighsigh.

aldrich says:
don't hang around with girls your age too much
chongyuanru says:
WHYY
aldrich says:
you all still have 1 infront of your age
aldrich says:
damn irritating

HAHAHA take that, old people!

all of a sudden, im unsure ):
sigh

half day off last night so jacky dropped by after dinner to show me his plaques and bayonet. oh and his new hairstyle (: his mum is a very good hairdresser, his hair super cute.




today is a lousy day ): i woke up late&didnt get to do what i wanted to. had a horrible runny nose&splitting headache but i took the train to school anyway because today is doublelab session day. sigh. i cabbed home immediately after bio lab and slept until dinnertime. gave the charity concert a miss in the end. im telling myself its not a waste of $13, its charity afterall. SIGH.

golden bayonet + best pt plaque + best trainee plaque
:D :D :D
HE'S SO OUTSTANDING I FEEL LIKE NOBODY.

busy week - alot of things happened ):
sometimes things happen beyond our control and the bad ones tend to come at us all at once. its a terrible feeling - as if the whole world is crashing down on poor lil helpless us but we will all eventually pull through and emerge a better, stronger person. this applies to you too, claire lim hui qi! whatever happened, happened. the cold hard truth may not be pleasing but im really glad youre picking urself up. tts what i admire of you, really. i may not be able to do so myself.
when stupid mind-blind people fail to appreciate the finer things in life, its their loss. one day we will triumph & they will end up regretting that they ever made such a choice.
p.s. (and she really looked funny with that big blue umbrella plus the way she walked. im not saying so just to make you feel better. when sths funny, its FUNNY lol)

it was self-declared holiday for me ytd cux dear had a day off from army. he bought bfast for me again (: and yay my sony ericsson w910 is finally out. im going to get my hands on it on saturday ha!

jacky passing out at 9am later! his golden blade can slay enemies HAAHAHA people out there better dont bully/disturb/annoy me. my bf has gold blade. ROFL

dear didnt get confined but i think he is asleep at home now.
he was awarded the golden bayonet - best in course (: such a remarkable boy. im in awe.
but after tuesday its byebye khatib camp, hello bedok camp. going guards.

im so proud of my boy.
but sometimes, i feel like he is drifting away from me with all his achievements& outstanding performances its taking a toll on me ):

i had to meet mayyi at 6.30 at cityhall so that we could collect our running pack together at millenia walk hence i dragged leeshuang out with me so i can shop alil after that too!my tag number ((: BUY 4D OKAY 0834!

anyway it was quite dumb for me to suggest shopping in marina square. because i wanted to buy dresses from forever21 but thrs no f21 at MS -_- so i didnt manage to buy any clothes at all! ): spent on accessories instead! i have this huge weak spot for accessories <3

hair-tie. this is my THIRD time buying this. i lost it once, bought again and lost it again. $6 x 3 = $18. ugh. i know alot of pple wont think that its very nice, but i really liked it. dont ask me why haha.

and everytime im out with shuang, we tend to camwhore alot.



claire&i have a shopping date whereby we're gonna spree&end it off with a satisfying dinner at glasshouse. I CANT WAIT. we have so many trillion things to catch up on and take tons and tons of pictures.

so many things are happening recently im getting pretty vexed. i want my boy )):

woke up with a fever ):
and jacky is still in camp. double ): ):

my head hurts so much sigh.